08 April 2007

Lesson Learned

Everyday we live we learn a lesson, whether we realize it or not. The past few weeks of my life have been great, but today, I realized that something that I was really happy about was only because I was naive and was hoping it could work out. Right about then, I started feeling really depressed. I was Giving Up. I had the lyrics to the song Giving Up by Last Tuesday stuck in my head for about 3 or 4 hours today, when I finally realized that to give up would be a poor choice. I've realized that I need to Carry On. When you are smitten by someone, you become blind to their flaws and build them up as this perfect person in your mind. Finally, when they let you down, you feel like your entire world is falling apart. There is more in this life than relationships, especially in my life. I can't let this get me down, I need to carry on. I am going to get a gym membership and start working out. I have a bigger goal than to have my first girlfriend. I want to lose 100lbs. By graduation next year, I will weigh between 185 and 200lbs. that is my goal

03 April 2007

This Week Sucks!

That's it, this week sucks. I really don't know why. I'm tired. I'm PISSED OFF! I don't want to do anything. I just got in an argument with my best friend who I have known since third grade and who has been my best friend since eigth grade for the first time, but frankly it's been a long time coming. There is alot that I want to say to him that I haven't and I won't because it wouldn't be right. Also, if his girlfriend wants to tell me to shut up, fine, but I don't see where she was coming from with that. One of my other best friends was in a crappy mood today and refuses to even talk about Christianity, and it hurts to know that one of my best friends thinks my faith is bull.